Chief Loh has just put out three new songs at reverbnation.com/chiefloh! The first one is called 'Jess For You'. The second is called 'Flame vs. Fullmetal' and contains samples from an anime called, 'Fullmetal Alchemist' for all you anime fans out there! The third one is called 'Hungry Kitty'. Both of the latter songs are instrumentals containing samples (cat sounds on 'Hungry Kitty').
Saturday, April 6, 2013
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Whose Body Am I Being?
In pondering self-will, I realize that unless an activity came to me on my own and is following my own agenda only, I am being somebody else's hands, feet, etc. With anything I think, do or say, I should ask myself whose body I'm being at that moment. So often, the answer is that I'm being my parents even though they're thousands of miles away. I'm living out ideas that they planted in me, in the exact same way that the Nazis were Hitler's hands and feet. I'm just an extension of their body. I see that that's what is called being a tool.
To counter-act this, I must look at what my sole purpose is in this body. It is to heal the space that I am in. In order to do that, I must first know the space that I am in. I need to become intimately familiar with the needs and lackings of everything around me. Only in that way will I be able to provide those things for them. I will be a steward of them.
And when I do something that has offended someone, the solution is not to immediately try to fix the problem. That would be my ego trying to soothe itself. The solution is to take a good look at the deep inherent flaw in my character that caused me to do such a thing that could offend someone. Once I have fixed that flaw, I will be in a place where repeating the offense would be less likely. At this particular moment, I just need to grit my teeth an take full responsibility for whatever has happened. It's too late to fix it now, but it's never too late to fix myself on the inside so as to not do that again if it is within my power not to. If I am allowed to fix the problem now, I won't have to think about my flaws and it will entirely be the responsibility of the other person to point them out to me every time from here on out.
Saying that I didn't mean to offend someone is never a good thing. The very fact that I didn't mean something that happened is the problem. I wasn't in full and absolute control of the situation. If I was careful and acted in such a way that the outcome matched my intention, then offense is a lot less likely. This is especially true with words. If I choose my words carefully, so as to avoid misinterpretation, then it is more likely that my intended meaning will be conveyed instead of some hurtful misunderstanding. Of course, the lack of care is usually the problem more than the misinterpretation. It shows a disrespect for the intended listener.
To counter-act this, I must look at what my sole purpose is in this body. It is to heal the space that I am in. In order to do that, I must first know the space that I am in. I need to become intimately familiar with the needs and lackings of everything around me. Only in that way will I be able to provide those things for them. I will be a steward of them.
And when I do something that has offended someone, the solution is not to immediately try to fix the problem. That would be my ego trying to soothe itself. The solution is to take a good look at the deep inherent flaw in my character that caused me to do such a thing that could offend someone. Once I have fixed that flaw, I will be in a place where repeating the offense would be less likely. At this particular moment, I just need to grit my teeth an take full responsibility for whatever has happened. It's too late to fix it now, but it's never too late to fix myself on the inside so as to not do that again if it is within my power not to. If I am allowed to fix the problem now, I won't have to think about my flaws and it will entirely be the responsibility of the other person to point them out to me every time from here on out.
Saying that I didn't mean to offend someone is never a good thing. The very fact that I didn't mean something that happened is the problem. I wasn't in full and absolute control of the situation. If I was careful and acted in such a way that the outcome matched my intention, then offense is a lot less likely. This is especially true with words. If I choose my words carefully, so as to avoid misinterpretation, then it is more likely that my intended meaning will be conveyed instead of some hurtful misunderstanding. Of course, the lack of care is usually the problem more than the misinterpretation. It shows a disrespect for the intended listener.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
My Brokenness
The purpose of this writing is to explore my brokenness. I'd like to define it, understand it and hold it. I can't drop what I can't hold and I can't hold what I don't understand. Once I've defined my brokenness, I'd like to explore its connection to my everyday activities. The point of this is so that I can learn to love myself, understand who I really am and fully visualize who I'd like to be. I am not my body, I am my soul. Any limitations I've put on myself, whether or not they were ingrained by my parents or my own devising, are merely an illusion. A soul cannot be limited in reality, only in my mind.
Somewhere to start is by paying close attention to my sponsoring thought. That is the thought behind my thoughts. Is it coming from a place of love or from a place of fear? What's my motivation behind everything I do and say? If I don't know, then it is most likely not coming from love. Only when I know that love is my motivating factor for everything I do and say, will my actions match my intentions. Even good intentions can come from a place of fear. That is where mine come from. I intend to do good things because I am afraid of being wrong or stupid or bad. I don't do good things because I care about the people that will benefit from them.
This leads me to my next topic: selfishness. It doesn't matter what my actions are that arise out of selfishness, they will end up badly for everyone. It may seem that someone who is selfish only loves themselves, but that is not the case. If they loved themselves, they wouldn't have to be selfish. When you are selfish, you are only thinking of your wants. You are ignoring your needs. And if you can ignore your own needs, how can you think that you'll be considering other people's needs? Even if all you are thinking about is someone else's wants, that is not loving them either. That is what enablers do for addicts. They are not helping them by giving them what they want. And don't think that doing a selfish act will end badly due to karma or some cosmic intervention. Bad outcomes are merely a natural consequence of needs not being met.
When I talk about needs, I'm not talking about the soul. The soul needs nothing. I'm talking about physical needs. To always keep in mind everyone's needs takes care which takes love. Love is the language of the soul, so you are feeding yourself spiritually when you are being selfless. You are also feeding everyone else's soul. Even if you have nothing physical to give to someone, if you are thinking about their needs, you are loving them. The poorest man can give infinitely more to someone than the richest man can ever hope to. A hug, compared to a million bucks will always win out if the one being hugged values themselves in a healthy way spiritually.
'Conversations With God' says that it is through what you think of as evil and what you think of as good that you define yourself. This is very interesting to me in that I've never put any thought into those things. I have no idea what I consider to be evil or good. No wonder I don't know myself! This will take some soul searching, some meditation, some exploration. I am such a blank slate. No wonder everything confuses me.
So far, the only things I can say for sure are that I think getting into trouble is evil and not getting into trouble is good. This definitely does define me. I lie to myself saying that I live to please people or help them or care for them, when in reality, I merely live to try not to displease people.
I was just thinking about how I can find some worth in this world when I realized how small I'm thinking. I'm making myself so much smaller by shrinking the arena in which I perform. It doesn't matter what this world thinks of me. I'm not in this body to be important to this world. I am in this body to experience life. I am the eyes, ears and fingers of God. When I truly come to value myself as a part of that universe, I become much bigger. I've always tried to be a part of something to feel as if I belong somewhere, but it won't be until I'm not just a part of something that I will know that I am the whole of everything. The opinions of this planet are tiny compared to the esteem of beings all over the universe who understand just what it is their up to and what it is I'm up to here. Thinking I'm not important within that context would be like thinking that the band Slipknot isn't famous because the citizens of some podunk town in Montana have never heard of them. And yet, this planet is important enough that people like Buddha, Jesus and Mother Theresa thought it was worthy to visit here.
Oh, and by the way, final tally: 'The Nocent part 2: Advent of the Scathing' sold 108 copies worldwide during its 5-day promotion!
Somewhere to start is by paying close attention to my sponsoring thought. That is the thought behind my thoughts. Is it coming from a place of love or from a place of fear? What's my motivation behind everything I do and say? If I don't know, then it is most likely not coming from love. Only when I know that love is my motivating factor for everything I do and say, will my actions match my intentions. Even good intentions can come from a place of fear. That is where mine come from. I intend to do good things because I am afraid of being wrong or stupid or bad. I don't do good things because I care about the people that will benefit from them.
This leads me to my next topic: selfishness. It doesn't matter what my actions are that arise out of selfishness, they will end up badly for everyone. It may seem that someone who is selfish only loves themselves, but that is not the case. If they loved themselves, they wouldn't have to be selfish. When you are selfish, you are only thinking of your wants. You are ignoring your needs. And if you can ignore your own needs, how can you think that you'll be considering other people's needs? Even if all you are thinking about is someone else's wants, that is not loving them either. That is what enablers do for addicts. They are not helping them by giving them what they want. And don't think that doing a selfish act will end badly due to karma or some cosmic intervention. Bad outcomes are merely a natural consequence of needs not being met.
When I talk about needs, I'm not talking about the soul. The soul needs nothing. I'm talking about physical needs. To always keep in mind everyone's needs takes care which takes love. Love is the language of the soul, so you are feeding yourself spiritually when you are being selfless. You are also feeding everyone else's soul. Even if you have nothing physical to give to someone, if you are thinking about their needs, you are loving them. The poorest man can give infinitely more to someone than the richest man can ever hope to. A hug, compared to a million bucks will always win out if the one being hugged values themselves in a healthy way spiritually.
'Conversations With God' says that it is through what you think of as evil and what you think of as good that you define yourself. This is very interesting to me in that I've never put any thought into those things. I have no idea what I consider to be evil or good. No wonder I don't know myself! This will take some soul searching, some meditation, some exploration. I am such a blank slate. No wonder everything confuses me.
So far, the only things I can say for sure are that I think getting into trouble is evil and not getting into trouble is good. This definitely does define me. I lie to myself saying that I live to please people or help them or care for them, when in reality, I merely live to try not to displease people.
I was just thinking about how I can find some worth in this world when I realized how small I'm thinking. I'm making myself so much smaller by shrinking the arena in which I perform. It doesn't matter what this world thinks of me. I'm not in this body to be important to this world. I am in this body to experience life. I am the eyes, ears and fingers of God. When I truly come to value myself as a part of that universe, I become much bigger. I've always tried to be a part of something to feel as if I belong somewhere, but it won't be until I'm not just a part of something that I will know that I am the whole of everything. The opinions of this planet are tiny compared to the esteem of beings all over the universe who understand just what it is their up to and what it is I'm up to here. Thinking I'm not important within that context would be like thinking that the band Slipknot isn't famous because the citizens of some podunk town in Montana have never heard of them. And yet, this planet is important enough that people like Buddha, Jesus and Mother Theresa thought it was worthy to visit here.
Oh, and by the way, final tally: 'The Nocent part 2: Advent of the Scathing' sold 108 copies worldwide during its 5-day promotion!
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Dark Canyon
I was just trying to find a release date for the movie that I was an extra in and made an interesting discovery. It is no longer called, 'To Kill A Memory', it is now called, 'Dark Canyon'. There's still no release date set, but IMDB says spring or summer of 2013. At least that's not too long from now.
Also, last I checked, 'The Nocent part 2: Advent of the Scathing' has sold 50 copies worldwide! This is only the first day of the promotion and it's sold over a third of what 'The Greater Number' sold in five days. I'm so proud!
Also, last I checked, 'The Nocent part 2: Advent of the Scathing' has sold 50 copies worldwide! This is only the first day of the promotion and it's sold over a third of what 'The Greater Number' sold in five days. I'm so proud!
Friday, March 22, 2013
The Pig Was Paul
I was just looking online earlier to find out if Slipknot has any plans to release a new album. I was also curious as to what their plans are as to finding a new bassist ever since Paul Gray passed away in 2010. They are working on demos for a new album, but have no plans to replace Paul. They have an old member of the band playing bass for their live shows. In case you didn't already know all this, that's what I was able to find out.
Oh, and ever since 'The Greater Number' started its promotion on March 19, I've sold over 100 copies! And that was just in America. Worldwide, I've sold about 140! In fact, it was such a successful promotion that I'm doing the same thing with my first book, 'The Nocent part 2: Advent of the Scathing'. It will be available for free at amazon.com starting March 24 and continue the promotion through March 28. You're welcome.
Oh, and ever since 'The Greater Number' started its promotion on March 19, I've sold over 100 copies! And that was just in America. Worldwide, I've sold about 140! In fact, it was such a successful promotion that I'm doing the same thing with my first book, 'The Nocent part 2: Advent of the Scathing'. It will be available for free at amazon.com starting March 24 and continue the promotion through March 28. You're welcome.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Hot Cakes
I can't believe it. Since I started my promotion on amazon.com, selling 'The Greater Number' for free yesterday, I've already sold 53 copies! At the time of writing this, it is the morning of the second day of the promotion. This sale is continuing through March 23. Imagine how many copies I will have sold by then!
Monday, March 18, 2013
Free Promotion
When I enrolled my books in Kindle Select at amazon.com, I was given the option to promote them by putting them out for free for a limited time. I just put 'The Greater Number' out for free from March 19-March 23. I think this might gain some readers. Most of the books in my Kindle library were free. I asked amazon to list the books from cheapest to most expensive. Then I just bought up all the free books. Oh, and I downloaded a free Kindle app onto my laptop so now I can read the books in my library without having to buy a Kindle. So anyway, I have updated my Facebook status to inform my friends about this free promotion. I also tweeted it and now I'm blogging about it to reach the largest audience possible.
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