God is all there is. The universe and I are the same. I have the strength in me to choose who I want to be. My mother can't take that away from me and no one can give it to me. It must come from me or it won't be healthy. Now I can't just have vague ideas like happiness or health as goals. I need specific, measurable things to work for with a fervency that can only come from inside me. I need to let go of the fear instilled by my mother. I can't be me if I fear anything. Fear makes you alter who you are. Love seeks to make you whole. Fear makes you feel as if you need something. If I feel that I need my mom to stop something, I'm not whole within myself. I need to realize that ultimately, she is me. I called this "outer" stimulus to make me doubt my inner peace. The book, 'The Little Soul and the Sun' by Neale Donald Walsch says that I brought this to me. Now I get to choose who I am in relationship to it. Will I love myself enough to be whole despite it, or will I create the illusion of need within me and search endlessly to fill a hole that doesn't exist. I am a soul that is whole. Nothing can break a soul. The song 'You're Never Alone' by Hatebreed says, "It's our struggles that define us and the hardships we endure. Your spirit can't be broken now, it's who you are." I am not my body. Hitler himself could never tear from me my self. What makes that self happy is what I need to work toward with a plan.